I’m a pretty private person and don’t go blabbing all my personal business all over the net. I get on with the things in my life and they sometimes make me step back from my artistic and creative endeavours – a bit more than I like of late.
I’ve been living with arthritis (ankylosing spondylitis to be exact) since I was 13 years old (thirty years now). I grew up in a family of hypochondriacs – if you asked one of my aunts/great aunts/grandparents how they were, you found out how they were in all the gory details, and they compared and tried to better each others’ illnesses. That was my norm as a child.
I grew up believing that when someone said ‘How are you?’ they really wanted to know, in detail, until a girlfriend of mine in the early years of high school (it’s always in high school isn’t it) said “When I say How are you? I don’t want to know how you are!” It was quite confronting and I took it to heart. She was right and she was brave enough to say it.
‘How are you?’ just means ‘Hello’ to most people
I have some close friends who I will talk to when I’m feeling down or overwhelmed and they are the best support a gal could have. My husband is the best support of all and I wouldn’t make it through some days without him. My daughter is a source of ‘get up and keep going’ and of joy and laughter. She makes me get well cards, and free hug cards, and I love you cards when I really need them.
In the last six months or so I have had a list of things go wrong with my health that have just frustrated the heck out of me. I’ve had to take time and slow down and pull back from some of the things I love to do. Crochet has been a life line – something I could do whilst resting and feel like I had accomplished something. Playing with soft pastels isn’t really doable in situations like that.
“Being optimistic isn’t always being happy.
It is taking what the world throws at you and saying
‘I’m not going to let this get me down.'”
-from ‘Nhan Fiction’
So, today, whilst I am still under the effects of wearing off anaesthetic from a day surgery procedure, I sat down at my PC to write and share a little bit of what my life is like right now. (Normally you wouldn’t hear a peep out of me 🙂 )
But if someone asks me tomorrow ‘How are you?’, my answer will be ‘I’m fine, thanks, how are you?’
Oh, and by the way, I do want to know.